Needing....

For as long as I can remember, (ok since my Mother died) I have been of the school of thought that people shouldn't NEED other people. I had to make an exception when my son came into my life and within minutes of seeing his face for the first time I knew that I needed him in my life in order to maintain happy. But with family exceptions aside, I have maintanied, particularly romantically speaking, that nobody NEEDS anybody and that really we only ever want.

I'm rethinking this.

I spoke to a friend over the weekend who I have no spoken to properly in a while. I won't go into the wheres, whats and whys of it all, but suffice to say that the down feeling that seems to have haunted me for the past few weeks lifted. It's amazing what a bit of laughter can do for the soul, admittedly. But it was more than that. I feel like I'm in a whole different place today than where I was before speaking to that friend on Saturday.

Relief. Smiles. Laughter.

If you have to speak to someone in order to achieve happy, that's 'need' right?

And you know what? It doesn't piss me off or disappoint me that I need anyone. No man is an island... not even this one.

We Got Bitch Slapped

Same old England....

So not only do we go out of the world cup, we go out in phenomenal style, annihilated by the Germans.

Incredibly, incredibly disappointing. But we had a piss poor tournament.

Oh well... Argentina play tonight and I'm now backing those fellas all the way!!


VAMOS!!!!!

Kate Tempest - Inspiring Young Slam Poet

This girl sticks two fingers up at everyone who believes kids brought up in certain areas can't achieve anything.

What talent.

"I Just Need a Hug"

My son thinks he has established the cause of his upset.

"I know Mum can't live here anymore and she has to live in Heaven. But can't she even come back just for a hug?"

I admit it. There's nothing quite like a hug from Mum and as much as I pride myself on the high quality of my hugs, I can't give him a Mum-style hug. He cuddles my sister a lot.

"I'm sorry... she can't."

"I know she can't. But I'm still sad."

But hey... we all feel like that sometimes, right? Sometimes we all just need a hug? From Mum.... from girlfriend, boyfriend, best friend, someone you miss.

So here's to hugs :)

One Day

I'm sure one day,
You'll be a wife,
A Mother too,
Your perfect life.

One day I'm sure
That you will be
The published writer
That I see.

One day you'll have
What you deserve,
A happy, homely life
Well earned.

And I will smile
In adoration
Silently whispering
'Congratulations.'

Eminem - Recovery

Eminem's new album, Recovery, was released today. First thing I did... download it from Amazon.

PHENOMENAL.

I'm not usually a rap fan at all but, as I have said before, Eminem is, in my opinion, THE poet of our generation.

Incredible album...the best since the Marshal Mathers LP.

There's a song on there called Spacebound in particular that is just freakin' brilliant... as well as a duet with Rihanna that's incredible too. In fact, I've listened to the whole thing three times without skipping a track and I love it all.

Looking for a quality album? Get that one!

Father's Day

I hadn't really thought about Father's Day this year. With so, so much going on it seemed almost irrelevant.

My son had other idea. Unknown to me, he's had stuff in the pipeline for a few weeks, adied by my Sister. So at 7am this morning, as he had already previously arranged, my sister came to my place with her little one and they quite silently prepared breakfast for me. They woke me just before 9... presenting me with a breakfast to die for and a few other bits and pieces.

My boy has been saving up his chores money and has bought me 2 tickets to see Santana in Manchester in October. Add to that the home made card, poem and football shirt and he's worked his little socks off to save.

He's been doing extra chores with my sister since the beginning of May too.

I'm feeling rather appreciated today and so incredibly proud of my son... as ever :)